I wonder... If I stab my temple, will the pressure and pain finally stop?

I'm seriously contemplating this as I stare at my Disney pin.

I do have sketches of designs of scarves, however my scanner is being a fucktard, and of course, my camera runs out of batteries. I'm going to try and get some today and possibly head over to La Amiga Tealas (Local cheap mexican fabric store here o/) and pick up at least some purple fleece. So I can have some for Quagsire's squiggle, aaand while it's not the same shade for a Drifloon, it'll do. :|

Mother Fucker, it is hot.

OH god, the new pills are as big as my fingernail.


I GOT AN F AND A C AND I GOT A K TOO
AND THE ONLY THING I'M MISSING IS A BITCH LIKE U

WHAT'S MY NAME WHAT'S MY NAME
AH-AH AH-AH
HOLD THE S BECAUSE I AM AN AIN'T


:|

Why do I see Kai/Jou to that. I've been craving rping it lately... Mmm I wanna watch my Battle City Box set now.

Edit:

juuust watched alice nine.'s Eraser -Memoire d'une fleur- PV again and loooooving L!Shou and Hiro-Pon with PEARLS Y SO GHEY PON?!

Gotta start keeping up with Arisu stuuuuuuuuffffff

Eventually D:

Ka-chan has had a frustrating day B|

Today at work, my boss said that she'd be a little late.

She was supposed to be there at 12, I get off at 1. My doctor's appointment is at 2. The DOCTOR'S APPOINTMENT I'VE BEEN WAITING AND WAITING FOR

Alright so.

My boss is stuck In traffic.

One rolls around. She's not even HALF WAY HERE.

I freak out. FREAK OUT. It's my fucking APPOINTMENT I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR. SERIOUSLY. Anyways, I call my friend, he comes right away because he now has a car and covers. Thank god. But while I'm FREAKING my OTHER GOOD EAR starts getting the cloggy feeling that my bad ear's gotten. FREAKS ME OUT MORE.

I get to my appointment barely in time.

..... The specialist put me on MORE Anti-biotics. Dear god, I hope these ones work. The Pharmacist was like "OMG YOUR THIRD ONE?! D8" And i'm like B| Anyways, I need to go back on the 4th after I take my Antibiotics and that's only FIVE DAYS BEFORE MY VACATION TO THE MOUNTAINS. :| If I'm not better with just the antibiotics, then I can't go and I'll have to stay home, get an MRI and get consultation for fucking surgery. ARGH.

But it is Eustacian Tube Dysfunction, thank god at least they know what's wrong.

Sooo then Mom took me to the Spectrum (And we got lost in Irvine because LOL IRVINE) afterward because my Cousin works at Nordstrom there and She's our "personal shopper" for the sales. Ended up getting some shirts and we ate food which was good. We also went to Macy's where I found out that my Credit limit is tiny... The hard way. :|

It was frustrating.

Also, I apparently don't register until the 23. Let's hope I get some fucking decent classes.

Ugh.

Also watching Wolverine and the X-Men. Logan-san, you're so nice in this~ kyaaaaaa~

OH the Wolverine Movie is showing at my mall! Anybody wanna go?

I ONLY WOKE UP AT 6 THIS MORNING~~~~ WHOOOOOO. Still in pain B|

I got Sales permission in pkmncollectors

Turns out, everyone wants a scarf ._.

I'm makin' good monies, I'm just like adjklfaafjafjafj BECAUSE SLOTS FILLED UP IN LESS THAN AN HOUR. This means I have to actually make them decent so they won't fall apaaaart and I'm scared that if they get them they won't like them because I FORGOT TO MENTION THEY'RE NOT DOUBLE SIDED AND OMG WHAT IF THEY DON'T LIKE SEEING UGLY STITCHING AND WANT TO SEE PRETTY JUST PURE PRETTY ALL AROUND AND AND OH GOD WHAT HAVE I GOTTEN MYSELF INTOOOOO?!!!!



Anyways this here is for my own reference

1.Mightyena
2.Relicanth
3.Quagsire
4.Gloom x2
5. Happy!Magnemite

I was going to make Marril last night with the remaining blue fleece, but I was REALLY tired after the sales stuff and So You Think You Can Dance and bleeeeeeeegh.

I also now need to take pics of AAAAAAAALL my TCG and shit so I can sell sell sell! I have sooo many doubles. Like wtf two Wizards of the Coasts Brock's Vulpix cards. How did I even get TWO?! And three Ancient Mews? yeah;;

ALSO REGISTRATION FOR CLASS TODAY. I NEED TO TALK WITH CSUF ABOUT MAH MONIES AND AAARRRGH >:[ THAT WILL NOT BE PLEASANT I CAN GUARANTEE YOU.

Today I woke up at 5 :|b

Hello 5:07. Hello pain. 'Sup.

aaagh nobody's online. Not that it matters much, but eh :|

Today gotta caaaaaaaaalll CSUF for multiple things, intern, go to Nordstrom to see the cousin (get sandals yay) aaaaand possibly make another scarf. Sunday I think I'll head over to Joann's to pick up some purple, grey, and black fleece so I can make more scarves |D

And dammit I also want Sales Permission in pkmncollectors but I don't know when I can get it D:

ANYBODY WANNA PUT IN A GOOD WORD FOR ME?!

Soooo I couldn't sleep.

And Had enough time to make another scarf just before work o/
( WHO'S THAT POKEMON?! )MY HEAD IS KIIIIIILLING MEEEE

Oh well, going to work :|

6 am

I woke up at 530

nothing helps this pain but i'm gettinh used to it now

i saw the sun rise

Today My Intership hours were canceled today so I spent all day sewing....

App for amatomnes is done and sent.

Let's just pray that I get accepted... I haven't written an app in FOREVER. D: But reading Yellow at 2 am is fun~ |D

ANYWAYS, POKEDOLLS CAME IN~~ |D

And my foot hurts. WTF :| STOP HURTING YOU B|

Aaaand my ear hurts. THESE STEROIDS DO NOTHING :\

So today I went to LA and met voltei and yaoi_queen at Union Station~ We took the subway to MJ's star where I bought a nicely framed photo, left a message, and left it there. All in all, it was super quick and no tears like I was expecting! How crazy is that! :O Afterwards we took the redline down to Little Tokyo~

Anyways, I spent more money than intended (but not too much! :D) on A SUPER CUTE Hibari Keychain, Pokemon Kids, two clipping figures, a book on the Saiyuki Movie, and yaoi_queen and I split some Saiyuki clear plastic posters~! |D only $1.50 each :O Surprisingly it's not too big, and I just had to move my alice nine. poster on my door up a little and it fit! :D

I ALSO TRIED CURRY~~~~~ OMGGGGG~~ SO GOOD. I'M LIKE. CRAVING IT AGAIN. It's Jounouchi's favorite food, and now one of my favorites too~ Though I like it with Chicken (next I wanna try BEEF 8D) and Jou likes his with just rice. Either way, mmmmmmm Curreh~ Soooo good. Next time I go to Mitsuwa I'm totally skipping on the Udon and getting CURRY.

WHO WANTS TO GO TO MITSUWA NEXT WEEK~~? |D Curreh~~~

AND FUCKING CLIPPING FIGURES DID NOT GET ME A CHERRIM B| THE RAEG WAS... well there was very little RAEG. But still B| I want my fucking clipping figure, and after finding out that they're only sold for $2.00 each, I kind of want to punch the person selling it on pkmncollectors for $7.00. I also want the Cherrim Kid but I've still had no luck finding it :(

AND THE DX CHARIZARD KID BUT AAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH. D8 I should have picked up a DX Kid since I was there because that one fishy thing sure is popular and I could sell it for some big bucks... And I should have asked for the Dragonite Kid in the window. It was super cute >: AND I KIND OF REGRET NOT GETTING THE BUNEARY PURSE THING.

My wallet is happy, though XD

B'awwww HLJ Apparently can't get the Yu-Gi-Oh! Keychains in... I REALLY don't want to go through a middle man D: The shipping is crraaazy.

mmmmaybe next paycheck... If I get people in on them :|

Aaagh I should start drawing. I just came up with a cute idea for a Buneary/Lopunny purse |D

AAAAAND NEED TO FINISH APP FOR [Unknown LJ tag] OMG NEED TO FINISH THAT APP TONIIIIIIIIIIGHT AAAAAAAAAAAAGH.

And it is mother fucking hot today :|

L-lol mom wants me to go into Urgent Care and maybe ER.

But I want to go to my Internship and work today. Let's see how much of a fight I can put up. I called the Advisory Nurse last night and she said I need to be seen first thing this morning... Maybe I'll go tomorrow morning and be back for work.

I want money. I want to go to Yaoi-con. With my loan, it's possible. It's a very delicious Loan.

On the bright side, I just sold my Tokidoki CellPhone purse. Yay $30.00 which will either go to 1-ebay because I need to put textbooks up for sale, and they take a huge chunk out for fees or 2-Sunnyshore Pokemart because Gizamimi Pichu is fucking cute.

Hello 2 am.

I went to bed early to make sure I wouldn't have to deal with this. Nope. Didn't help. I was just beginning to feel better. My ear was actually starting to POP for the first time in a month. I was starting to sleep.

...The steroids were supposed to help the pain... I can't have another week of this. I can't take it. It hurts so much oh my God. Please Help me God.

I can't open my mouth. I can't swallow. I cant move my jaw, it's just PAIN. It's so tense and any movement just adds more PAIN.

I'm just so sick of this. If I didn't keep getting the run-around, if they'd just PAY ATTENTION to me when I said it hurt, it wouldn't have gotten this bad. I swear I just need to sleep. I just want to sleep good for a night.

I'm seeing a specialist NEXT FRIDAY I don't know if I can wait that long. I don't want to go to Urgent Care again. I dont want to spend a night in ER. I'm sick of spending money on this when they do NOTHING to help.

HOME REMEDIES DO NOT WORK. THEY DO NOT HELP. I've tried everything.

Please God, Just help me sleep.

EDIT: Hi 3 am. My ear's not hurting anymore but my throat is now. wtf

My ear hurts and it feels like I have cottonballs in it.

There's another sharp pain from my throat that throbs.

No, dammit. I have an amazing internship tomorrow and I need to be good for Sunday, dammit.


Will work on App for Amatomnes tomorrow.

Sunday I don't have work or interning. I'm going to take the train to LA and Hollywood and going to leave Flowers for Michael Jackson at his Star.

Afterward I do plan on eating lunch, and sight-seeing. Maybe going to little Tokyo if we can find busses and crap. IDK.

If anybody wants to go with me, let me know. Call, Text, IM, or leave a comment here.

voltei Is going with me for sure (considering I need to give him his Plushies anyways). The more the merrier.

Just be warned that there's going to maybe an hour of emo and I will more than likely cry there ^^;

Mariah Carey and Trey Lorenz are singing I'll be there and I can't stop crying.

I'm not sure I can watch the rest of this. I didn't think I'd cry this much. I've been crying since the casket was brought out.

SO I only went 1 day :( And hat was with kiya_kiya_chan and natusko :D We were very confused getting over to Natsu's house, but well, we were special and got there 8D; WE ALSO LOVE THE NAME OF HER STREET. IT IS VERY CUTE AND HAPPY.

NATSU LIVES IN A HAPPY PLACE |D

Anyways, the drive there was full of lulz and stuff

Once we got there, who parked next to us as we got out? A Tsuna and a China 8D TO LOL WITH OUR COMBINATION OF HIBARI (ME) AND CHINA (NATSU). Sandy was also Goku and quite possibly the cutest Goku evar <3

So like, we went inside the con, people were hardly there (considering it was like, 9 am) and Natsu and Sandy Registered while I got kidnapped by cosplay.com people XD; We wandered around and waited in line for the dealers hall, and eventually I had to go off by myself because I refused to pay $35 for the last day of AX just to spend more monies in the Dealers hall B| So I went to the Starbucks and got a Coffee |D There, I met up with voltei in his adorable Ritsuka cosplay. Then after obtaining coffees (and the batteries to my Camera dying :() I waited in like, a SUPER LONG LINE to get Autographs of the Director and Director of Art from TTGL |D So yaaaaay amazingness. And lol, I didn't have a pass but for some reason I was let in 8D;; Could be that Sandy let me borrow hers 8D;; WAY TO CHEAT THE SYSTEM~

Anyways, after that Natsu and Sandy went off to the Dealers hall and Artist alley again while me and Voltei hung out and like, ate a sammich at a Deli :D And got Batteries~~ |D

So we went back in the main lobby and there were tons of cosplayers just dicking around and I took a few pics of people, and talked with a few others. I also was asked to take a pic with somebody's kid. o_O; Guess they were a Hibari fan?;; LOL Hibari babysitting little kids? Why do I want to see this?;

Well anyways, after lulz and shit, mongoliabun showed up with Daisuke-mun from Salkia and their friend. So we sat around and talked and lulz'd over rp and shit and wank and rp!s and LOL telling Daisuke about behind the scenes Salkia and lawl.

And after taking pictures, TRYING TO GET ROOMMATES FOR Y-CON Sandy and I had to go (Natsu had to leave early) and so we went to Little Tokyo to hit up Kinokuniya and Anime Jungle, AND THE SWEET SHOP~ =W=

Aaaaand while at Anime Jungle I bought some stuffs CHEAP and at Kinokuniya my Card declined because I have all my monies in a Savings account instead of my checking, and LOL forgot to transfer. WELL BETTER FOR ME BECAUSE I DIDN'T NEED ANOTHER KAMINA CELLPHONE STRAP....

I need to keep telling myself this T_T;

Then after getting LOST in LA for a good 15 minutes Sandy and I navigated our way out of LA and back to the OC. Maaaaaan we were in some SCAAAAARY NEIGHBORHOODS 8D;

BUT WE'RE ALIVE.

But what do you all care? I know what you all want-

( ONTO THE PICTURES o/ )

Dear Dad,

You are not a doctor or a pharmacist. Yes, you were once an x-ray technician, and for that, you do have a lot of medical knowledge. But you do NOT know about my medicine. You were not there when they explained it to me. Do not ask ME 1000 questions about it, and YELL at me when I'm following instructions. If you want to research it, then GO AHEAD. Don't have me sit here and research it when I have breakfast and hot coffee waiting for me.

IF I HAVE TO GO SIX DAYS WITHOUT MY COFFEE BECAUSE YOU THINK IT'S A BAD IDEA, THEN THERE WILL BE HELL TO PAY.

I know you base things off of experiences with Grandma, but she had cancer. She was going through treatments and hospital visits at the time. So please don't base every medical problem off of that. I know you do it because you care, but you end up intimidating, and then we argue, and it doesn't end well.

Love,
Me


LOL I wonder what'll happen when he finds out FLONASE HAS A STEROID IN IT, TOO. Flonase+Inhaler+new medicine=MANRY KA-CHAN >:D

Y'all can call me 'Ken' now ;D I'll be your manly man~

LOL no, not really XD;

And FUUUUCK my ear REALLY hurts :( I REALLY don't want to spend two more weeks like this D: But what can I do?; There's really no point of doing anything else but take the medicines until I see the Specialist on the 17th... I've tried all the home remedies. I hardly slept last night.

Scratch that, I was just getting to sleep until David called, telling me he was going to AX today and if I wanted t hang out. And I was like "i'm not going tomorrow" B| Then I couldn't sleep for another 2 hours later;;

Anyways, AX TOMORROW I'M EXCIIIIITED. Gonna cosplay hibari and BITE PEOPLE TO DEEEATH and see a few people, and hang out, and eeeeee~~~

And baaaaaaaw the post office doesn't work today which means any packages I've got aren't arriving until next week :( CURSE YOU HOLIDAY.

Finally, they know what's wrong. Turns out the first doctor was right...kinda.

Anyways.

Eustachian Tube Dysfunction

Basically, the tube in my ear is blocked, AND THE OCEAN REALLY IS IN MY EAR.

Treatments? Steroids and possible surgery in the future. IMMA GET A TUBE IN MAH EAR GAIZ. Exciting, I know. :|

Anyways, Going to AX on Suday if kiya_kiya_chan is going :) I'm gonna cosplay Hibari because Girl!Gojyo is too uncomfortable with that wig, Hibari's a super simple cosplay and super comfortable, anyways.

BRB GONNA TAKE STEROIDS NAO KTHX

mom is debating on taking me to urgent care tonight or tomorrow. We're waiting for the nurse to call.

So I took an audio test today so I can see an ENT on the 17th.

LOL TURNS OUT that the one ear that DOESN'T hurt is the ear that has SLIGHTLY worse hearing. The Doctor was like "Have you been exposed to loud sounds?"

Me: "I uh... go to a lot of concerts >.>;"
Doctor: "B| Next time you go, get Musicians Ear plugs."
ME: "D: But... the ringing goes away later!"
Doctor: "One day, the ringing WON'T go away B|"
Me: "D8"


I-I'm gonna be that weird kid with the earplugs at the concerts, now, gaiz D: *crai* Like, what's the point if your ears don't ring?! T_T

Anyways, I got a few plushies I ordered in <3 BELLOSSOM IS SOOOOO CUTE. She has MARACAS 8D Now I'm just waiting for Banpresto Charmander, the Cherrim Pokedoll and THE GIANT LOT 8D Also waiting on the awesome figures voltei and I got, along with a Luxray Kid. |D POKEYMAAAAAANS

Eeee~ If I cosplay Cherrim I want someone to cosplay Bellossom with me >: We could be flowery prettiness~ LOL I walso want a Turtwig 8D I'M LOOKIN' AT YOU, ZELL 8D BTW Get off IJ and come back to LJ B|

FUCK My ear's starting to hurt again T_T;;

And I also lost my eco-friendly water bottle with the tiger on iiiiit T_____T Gotta get a new one Sunday Before they sell out at the coffee place :(

I also hit up Joann's on the way back from the doctor's today to get some fleece to make King Dedede (at least the head part) and It turns out that Blizzard Fleece was on sale for 3.99 8D Imma make scarves now |D LOL Sewing winter items in summer, wtf; But I now have sooo much fleece~ <3 I even got a Remnant of the Aniti-Pill fleece for only $1.50 :O I just hope I have enough fusing for what I want to do...

And thread, lol; I forgot about that D: